When I think about what makes me happy, I don’t think of material things, I think of people.
I think about how I have one of the best families you could ever ask for. They make sure that no matter what, I have somewhere to go and they help me any chance they get. If they can do it, they do it. For instance, once when I had hit hard times, my mom helped me out by paying my cell phone bill and kept me from being homeless. My dad has helped me get jobs and talks to me when I’m feeling stressed out.
I think about my daughter, who for various reasons I don’t get to see a lot, but who I love more than any person in this world—and nothing can ever change that.
I think about my friends. They’ve also helped to keep me from being homeless when I hit hard times, and have helped me find jobs and stay out of trouble and make sure that I’m doing what I need to do. Once, when my car had broken down out of state, my buddy Josh drove all the way to help me get my car home so we could fix it. It’s always good to have good friends in your life, because you never know when you might need the support of a good friend or family member. When you don’t know what to do, you have someone to turn to.
I think about my fiancé. We’ve been through a lot. Years ago, I did her very wrong by leaving in the middle of the night with another girl. I eventually knew that I had made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. When she needed me most, I ran. But even after we had been separated for years, we finally reunited. She took me back and forgave me for how I treated her. The forgiveness and love she shows me today after what I did to her is unbelievable.
Relationships and people are not always easy. I’ve made mistakes in relationships, but I still believe they are worth fighting for. I take a lot of pride in trying to be kind to everyone I meet and make sure that they understand that, as long as you don’t take advantage of me, I will help as much as I can. And when I screw up, I want to be the kind of person that says, “I was wrong. Please forgive me.” Because our relationships with people—with family, friends, children, spouse or significant other—matter more than anything else.
These relationships are what make life worth living. They are why I recently got a job, and why I want to be a great provider to the people I’m responsible for. I love doing those little things that make my loved ones happy, like making breakfast or dinner for them. I want to do everything that I can for the ones I love, even if it means that sometimes I have to do without.
So, when I look on my life, yes, I’ve experienced a lot of brokenness but I’m also grateful for the love I share with friends and family because they have made me happy and continue to make life worth living.